Beginning and rebeginning

I’ve always thought of the new year as coming in two parts. There’s the first of January, obviously, and then because my birthday is also in January I think of it as the second part. The world’s new year, and my personal new year. 

Since moving to Ireland, I’ve also come to embrace Imbolc at the start of February (especially now that designating St Brigid’s day a bank holiday has given us an extra long weekend to break up the long, cold stretch between New Year’s and Paddy’s Day). Though as far as I know Imbolc was not the traditional start of the new year, it is considered the start of spring in the Irish calendar, and that in itself is a new beginning. 

I know not everyone likes new year resolutions, and I understand the argument against. If you want to make a change in your life, you don’t have to tie it to an arbitrary spot on the calendar. But for me, I love to set intentions across the period between New Year’s Day and my birthday, and now Imbolc — basically over the course of January, rather than deciding them on day one, I give myself time to turn them over in my mind, and let them develop. 

There’s a bit of ritual to the whole process, sure. I always light a candle, pull a few tarot cards, start a list in my bullet journal, and so on, but mostly it’s the thinking that’s the important part. 

At work, we talk about goals in terms of the SMART acronym: specific, measurable, achievable, relevant, time-bound. And some of my resolutions fall into these categories. I did parkrun 17 times last year; this year I’m trying for 20. It’s fun and satisfying to have things to check off the list (two parkruns down, 18 to go). 

But some of my resolutions don’t fit a single one of the SMART factors. There’s nothing specific about nourishing my creative soul or time-bound about deepening my relationship to nature. And achievable? How would I even know? 

On a similar note, most of my resolutions are the same year after year. Sometimes it’s because I’ve let them slip as the months go by — like the eager January gym-goers whose numbers thin out by April, sometimes life gets in the way. I mostly dropped out of my yoga practice last year, and I’ve updated my blog more times in the three weeks of this year than I did in all of 2024. Sometimes getting started again is as lovely and important as getting started the first time.

Likewise, the intentions that cannot be measured — cultivating creative energy, exploring spiritual growth (or “going full witch” as my best friend called it), striving for a better world — these are resolutions for every year, forever. These are lifelong journeys, not goals that can be completed.

And does it matter? Not a bit. Come next year, I’ll set the same intentions again. And in the time between, these things will begin and they’ll begin and they’ll grow and they’ll end and they’ll begin again, and we’ll see what happens. I look forward to it.

50,047 words richer

2020 has been, I don’t need to tell anyone, a weird year. There have been days when moving from the bed to the couch has seemed a herculean feat, days when the effort of pouring a bowl of soup from a can has been similar to the work put in to make a five-course gourmet meal. There have also been days when things have gone swimmingly—exercise, cleaning, work, play, all sorts of productivity in a single 24-hour period, with minimal doomscrolling in between. It was in anticipatory hope of a strong of days like that which made me decide to sign up for NaNoWriMo once more.

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500 days of twenties

I’ve got this great app called Countdown Star on my phone that I love. You input an event and it how many days there are until the date (or from the date, if you’re counting up from the day of your birth or whatever past occasion you want to celebrate or remember). 19 days until Steve and I go to Japan. 59 until we go to Tasmania to hike the Overland Track, 11 days since we got engaged (oh yes, did I not mention? …more on that next week), 10,457 days since I was born, and so on. And today it is exactly 500 days until I turn 30. Because I’m me and I love a good list, of course that called for one. A short-term bucket list of sorts, 30 things I want to do between now and 500 days from now, when I leave my twenties and join the world of thirty, flirty, and thriving.

I won’t share the whole list as some things are quite personal, but here are some of the items I plan to check off:

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2018… 75% loaded

I have no idea where September went, but somehow it’s the first week of October, and that means the year is three-quarters over. Because I am a to-do list-making, bujo-obsessive, I’m already taking stock of the year. I can barely handle to even think of current affairs at the moment, but I am glad to look back and forward at my own year. Here’s a brief list of things I’ve done:

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Creating with joy: my work is mine to love

September is flying by. Two months from now, Steve and I will be leaving New Zealand and heading to Australia (visas pending… should probably get on applying for those). In the meantime, we have two trips planned (well, one planned and one planning-in-progress… can you tell I’m a bit behind on my to-do list?), heaps of people to spend time with, and a couple more items to cross off the kiwi bucket list.

The weather’s also starting to warm up (yay!) which has meant that my Septemberwrimo goal has gotten slightly off-track. Only slightly, I’m at ~24,000 words and I expect I’ll hit 27,000 at least by the time the month finishes, but I have no desire to sit inside on my laptop when it’s sunny and there are mountains to climb. But that’s not important. Even if I only write one word in a day I try to celebrate it, because it’s one more word than I had on the page before.

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SeptemberWriMo

We all have excuses for why we don’t write. Work, kids, Netflix marathons, there just aren’t enough hours in the day. I’ve written before about how difficult I find writing for fun when I write for a living. And yet, for one glorious, stressful month a year, we put all our excuses decide, meet up with friends and strangers in coffee shops and on twitter, and try to bash out 50,000 words for National Novel Writing Month.

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